hadiah buat zarul

Okay, smalam i da cte psl ewan, my best buddy.so today i nk cte psl zarul, my one and only :) heehe..mesti rmai duk question why hani never wrote about her bf?? aha..sbbnye kan, sbbnye..i jnis xkse kecoh2 about my love story..i x ske sme org tawu ape yg i buat, pegi mane, sume..for me, dats my privacy..my life. so bg i spe yg tawu, tawu la.yg xtawu, xpe, xpenting pon u all tau our love story sbb itu special kisah sye dan die.ngehehhe ;p so kali ni sye tulih psl die ni pon kre adiah la..utk die n diri sye juge utk remind myself btape beruntungnye sye ade die dlm idup sye..ngehehe..(warning kepade mereka2 yg x suke psl love2 ni tlg jgn bca! kang ade yg xlalu makan kang.haha ;p)

okeyla, name diberi kpade bdak sorang ni pnjng, so i gne zarul je la eh. cmne i knal die eh..i knal die mse tu ktorg kt matrix pahang lg..ktorg satu kelas..ctenye gni, mule2 ade my fren 2 org ni suke sgt la tgk si zarul nieh.everytime die lalu je mesti nk tgk, pastu follow die g mane2.haha..(cm stalker plak ;p) i pon plik ape la yg dorg ni ske sgt psl bdak zarul nieh.kurus je i tgk (mmg kurus amat pon! ;p) aha..pastu time tu rmbut die cm botak2 skit cm askar (lg la i x gemar!) hehe..tp x kesah la kan, i ni bkn jnis ske msk cmpur hal org, so i bia je la my fren 2 org ni buat ape yg dorg ske..ehe..pastu dpendekkan cte smpai la 1 hr ni tme presentation utk English class dlm klass ktorg..so group i kne present..pastu tbe2 si bdak zarul yg slalunye senyap n x penah dgr sore die dlm klas ni pose a lot of questions to our group! surprise! surprise! haha..ai ape lg, i jnis yg ske reply la lg2 mse presentation kan. pastuh dlm hati i duk ckp la (pttla bdak ni syp je, trer BI rupenye) tp dlm ati geram la sbb die tnye soklan yg cm nk trap group i.tp seb bek la i dapat jwb kan.hahahha! u ingat x syg? ;p

So, dats d first impression la yg die beri kt sye..pastu pendekkan cte lg sye dpt offer wat TESL..so sye ngn apat (my fren now kt uia) dpt offer ni n ktorg dgn hepinye nk accept..so ade la dlm sminggu lg utk ktorg kua dr kmph tu..time ni mmg best sbb i ngn apat kalo g lecture hall je goyang kaki dgr kuliah x yah salin nota sbb ktorg tawu ktorg akan kua dr ctu kan! hehe..so mmg having fun lah time tuh! pastu mse hr ktorg nk balik tu apat ni cm minat sorg bdak dlm klas i tu..nme ape i x igt la.pastu die ajak la bdak ni mnum2 kt cafe borak2 sbelum ktorg balik..pastu die ajak zarul skali sbb die ckp i yg nk jmpe zarul ni. kalo x silap i la, tme tu mmg la i nk jmpe zarul ni sbb cm nk ckp gudbye la ape sme sbb ngn org len sme i da ckp, ngn die je blum. haha..pastu ktorg jmpe la kt cafe...pastu ble da duduk dkat br la i pasan another thing dkat si zarul nieh..guees wut, mate die coklat!! haha..i was like stunned kejap tgk mate die kt ctuh.hahha.pastu die da tekebil2 apesal ni kan.haha..pastu i ckp la mate die lawa..(mmg lawa pon! sbb coklat yg coklat,bkn dark coklat!) haha..pastu borak2 tkantoi plak die da ade gurfren sbb kt file die ade lukis katun2 pastu name tasya kot. ble tnye spe, die tarik file tu ckp tu name mak die...hahah..memang tak la kan! name mak ape glamour cmtuh! haha ;p xpe, dats another story ;p

dipndekkan cte lg, mse dlm kete otw blk umh die ade tggl voice mssge.die ckp suh kol die pas i smpai umah sbb die ade bnde nk bgtau? cmtu la lbey kurg kut. ho..pastu cmne ntah ktorg kenal la..kwan2 sme..pastu 2 mnggu kot pastu die propose i jd gf die..i pon ntah la apsal kan g trime je plak.haha..xtau la i pkir ape tme tu.i rse i pkir sbb i x seryes kut tme tu..cm sje2 je..hhehe..jahat x i? ;p tp tulah, nak xnak, taun dpan da msk la 5taun ktorg together..nk sgt maen2 ye hani..haha..

nk cte relationship ktorg smooth je x jgak..mne ade lautan yg x dilanda ombak kan..haha..byk kali la jgak ade rows sume..tp alhamdulillah due2 slg memahami n tolerance to each other...i pulak prinsip i dlm love ni kene ade 2 bende ni which is 'kejujuran' n 'keikhlasan'...bg i kalo ade 2 bnde ckup la,insyallah sme bnde laen tjage jgak..cthnye, kalo die btul2 ikhlas n jujur syg kte,xkan la die nk betray kte kan? kalo die betray jgak, mknenye die belum btul2 syg kte ngn jujur n ikhlas la tu..n kte pon x leh nk blame die sbb cinta kan x leh dipakse..maybe sbb kte ni jgak x buat yg habis baek utk mnjadi org yg die syg..ha..i rse la..xpon die tu lemah iman sgt kot, nmpak ponpuan cntik sket je tros brubah hati! hahha ;p seb bek la zarul i x cmni.(ke ye? hm..;p) zarul ni mmg la..laki kan. mang ske tgk pompuan lawa..haha..i pon ske tgk laki kacak wut? ;p so i paham la kalo die tgk pompuan laen tu ke ape..sbb pompuan tu mmg lawa. i admit ni.haha..so kt cni xde la tmbul isu2 jles ke ape ke..ktorg menghayati ciptaan tuhan yg indah~ cewah~ seswai sgt la kan due2 cmtuh! haha ;p

pastu zarul ni hati die..sgt pure...ikhlas...die x ckp..tp kalo u knal die, bleh tau kot..cm dpt rase..ape yg die buat utk kte slame ni, dgn kte slame ni..mmg btul2 lahir dr hati die...mmg keikhlasan tu x dpt ditafsirkan, tp somehow u can feel it tau..i x tau la cmne nk explain, tp tu ape yg i rse la..cnthnye kalo die ckp tu..mmg btul la lahir dr hati die..kalo yg bukan lhr dr hati die n die ckp kt mulut je slalu nye i leh detect sbb i kan ade 6th sense,,hehehe...tp tulah,kadg2 i ade gak trase ngn die sbb kdg2 i rse die lg pentingkan kawan2 die dr i..tnye buat ape, lepak ngn kawan la, clebrate befday kawn la itu la ini la.pastu i trase diabai..wuuu T_T .. tp skang hrp die da brubah la..hehe...n i rse da kut..(after i bgtau die la kan) hehe..

pastu ape ek..hm, seingat i la kan, zarul x penah mara i..pna skali je kot dlu. first tme die tnggi sore.nape ntah i pon da x ingat sbb i jnis kalo da maafkan tu i lpe tros.haha..tp tu pon xde la mara mane pon..cmtu la..tp mmg die x pena mara sye..kalo sye ade wat slh ke, bg die trase ke, die x pena mara sye..plg ye pon die akan syp je..ble sye tnye nape xcakap? x cakap mne sye twu. pastu die reply, sbb die sgt sygkan sye..smpai die x sggup nk mara sye..die rela pendam sme tu asalkan dpt tgk sye hepi..isk..u make me cry darl T_T ! i love you!! tulah, hati die pnuh dgn kasih sayang yg saye xde..kehadiran die dlm idup sye cm melengkapi ape yg sye kurang..mmg hati sye kurang dgn kasih sayang..die la yg kenalkan kt sye ape itu kasih, ape itu sayang..sbb itu sye syang sgt2 kt die..wlpon die slalu pggil sye gemuk, bucuk, tp sye tau, sye tetap yg plg comel n wngi d hati die..hikhik ;p btol x dear? kalo x btul i cari laen lah cmni.hehe..;p

ha, pastu, sye pon x tawu la ape yg die ske sgt kt sye ni. da la rendah, syp pulak tu.die jnis yg enjoy life..mesti die rse bosan dgn sye kan? haha..kdg2 sye rse srbe salah je sbb ape la yg sye ade smpai die syg sye cmtu skali.aih. hoho..tp dlm relationship ktorg mmg respect each other.. i mean kalo sorg x suka, jgn la nk buat pulak kan.ade yg kene makan slipar kang.haha..ktorg ni nk ckp same, ade la yg same.plg obvious mke ktorg kot (ni org ckp la..) cthnye cam kalo ktorg bdiri sbelah2 org boleh la igt adik bradik..hahha..cop i nk jd adik! ;p pastu minat..byk gak yg sme..ktorg ske men boling, tgk muvi n mkn McD! haha..mcD plg besh ok!pastu nk ckp differences..byk jgak..i ske tgk horror muvi, die plak plg tkot tgk horror muvi.pnah skali tu i penah kene mandi popocorn sbab bdak ni lah! abes dituangnye pop corn kt i sbb tekjut! aih.sah2 pastu i yg pegang popcorn tuh! n i makan soranag2.hahahah! ;p comel btul la kamu ni zarul. tp kamu kene blaja jd brani okey? sbb nnti spe nk jage sye? xkan sye kne jge dri sndri lg..sye da pnat la jge dri sndri..sye nk kamu jge sye pulak bole? hehe..

banyk sgt psl zarul ni kalo sye nk cte..tp sye cte skit je la kt cni..hoho..die ni jgak sgat la tidak kuat jeles which is sgt contradict dgn i. again.haha.die x mara kalo i kwn ngn laki laen, kua ke ape ke,aslkan die twu. (mane nk cr org cenggini lg??) hhoho..tp kdg2 tu gram la jgak kan, pnat sye buat mcam2 nk kasi die jeles tp die x jeles2 gak! gram btul! kamu x syg sye ke zarul?? tp then ewan ckp, 'tu sbb die syg sgt kt u hani..die trust u.." pastu i pkir2 blk, btol gak eh ape ewan ckp tu.ha, ewan tu slalu je nk backing si zarul ni kalo i cte ape2.haha..idola die katenye? haha..ewan ewan, i nk ajak u jmpe zarul tanak.segan la knun. haha..ewan ni cm penjage i dr jauh la kre..zarul plak pnjage i dr dekat..hehe..(wlpon sbenaneye kte jauh tpisah, tp kamu tetap dkat kt hati sye tau)..kalo tnye npe sye jrg nanges kt die sbb nye is sye xnak die riso..spanjng knal die, die ckp 2x je sye pnah nanges kt die..hehe..bkn sye jrg nanges, tp sye slalu nanges sorang2..sbb sye pon nk die hepi jgak..pastu sbb sye nk tnjuk sye kuat kot (ego nih ;p) haha..i mean sye mmg xkan nanges kalo sbb bende rmeh temeh la..sket2 nk nanges, sket nk nanges,ape kes? haha..sye kalo bleh akan try sdaye upaye xnk nanges dpan org..sbb tu org slalu ckp hati sye keras..sbb x penah tgk sye nanges..tp dlm hati spe tawu? sye xde spe nk nnnges..dats y sye nanges sorang2..tp kdg2 tlepas jgak..sbb sdey sgt kan.ho..
so baby, ni ada poem utk u. u da baca i rsa.haha.i x smpat la nk buat poem laen.i ltak yg ni jelah dlu ye. okey, bukan snng i nk type entry ni tau. sbbnye? (refer to para 1) haha..tp hr ni special sket la sbb befday i kan..so ape salahnye i tulis psl org2 yg i sayang kan :) n zarul, i love you..thank you for entering my life when i need u most, thank you for always being patient with me even i byk songeh n kuat majok,thank you for introducing me d true meaning of love, thank you for giving me such a special place in your heart, i knew no matter wut i do i cud never compare ur love to mine..thank you for understanding me, for being with me thru ups n downs, n for accepting me for who i am..u accept my strength n weaknesses..dats d most vital thing..thank you sayang, wlpon i x slalu ckap, tp i rili love u tau. u kno kan? i miss u, love u too.. :)


ni gmba zarul bsame dgn mamanye n anak buahnye..hehe..lawakan mama die? :)


ni plak arwah snowball n puffball, hamster ktorg :)


ape kaba la dorang agaknye ye..idup lg x?


mse dinner..bju die sme kaler ngn bju sye! :) (tgk tu die sorg je laki.hu n kkene ni.)


die ngn nikman.nikman, jgn rmpas zarul dr i eh.die i punye (kate hani dgn nada possessive.hehe ;p)


si hensem sye..haha ;p


For my beloved Zarul, i have composed this poem myself especially dedicated for you...



My Love

You help me get through,
My thick and thin,

You give me hopes,
When i was down,

You are always there,
When i need you,

You give me trust,
When i can't even affirm mine,

Never once you give up on me,
When all i know is blaming you,

Never once you are angry at me,
When all i did is making u angry,

Never once you are tired of loving me,
When sometimes i did ponder why do i love you,

Your heart is full of love,
So pure that it can't never be compared to mine,

Your actions are full of sincerity,
So true that i can't compared mine,

But most of all,
You love is so great,
That it makes me shame for mine is not as great as yours,

Thank you for loving me that much,
i love you.
i miss you too.

-hunny '08-