Saturday, 31 May 2008

Mencintai tak beRmaksud Memiliki..

Janganlah kau angkuh melaungkan…
Si dia kepunyaanmu..
Atau kau kepunyaan si dia..
Kerana hakikatnya....

Kita tidak pernah memiliki sesiapa

Walau sekeping hati seorang insan..

Tidakkah kau sedar…
Hukum alam menyatakan…
Menyintai tidak semestinya memiliki?…
Manusia pandai berpura…
Berlakon di pentas dunia…
Dan bertopeng menutup rahsia…
Tetapi hati…
Tidak pernah berdusta pada empunya…
Tentang perasaan yang bergolak di dalamnya…
Tidakkah kau sedar…
Mungkin si dia melafazkan…
Ungkapan cinta padamu…
Tetapi hati dan perasaannya…
Tidak pernah berniat begitu…
Dia hanya berselindung…
Di sebalik sejuta alasan
Dan kau…
Begitu jujur dan setia menyintainya..
Sehingga terlupa..
Hukum alam menyatakan..
Menyintai tidak bermakna memiliki..
“Aku tidak pernah memiliki dirimu…”
“Dan kau jua tidak memiliki diriku.”
Kita sebenarnya kepunyaan..
Yang Maha Esa…
Tiada sesiapa berhak memiliki diri kita…
Kecuali Dia…
Dia mengasihi hambaNya…
Dia memiliki hambaNya…
Dan ke pangkuan Dia kita akan dikembali……

Saye suke poems

You know you love me,

Wednesday, 28 May 2008

Hatiku mulai bosan...

Penat menanti.
Yeah, sometimes i getting tired of waiting. Waiting for something that we have no idea what it is gonna be like, waiting for someone or something that we are'nt sure when they are going to come true, waiting for time to pass by, and waiting. It is really frustrating and upsetting. It makes us looks like a fool, like a wooden block waiting to become a Pinocchio, like a frog waiting to become a prince, and the saddest part is it makes us developed this hatred feelings in our heart and make us lost our hope and trust on them. Phew, yeah, and im tired of waiting. I might have change in the meantimes. Everyone would. and that's the scariest part. Sometimes i even imagining myself turning into somebody else because of this reason. Psycho, i kno. Haha.

But i think there's a reason behind all of this stuff. Perhaps Allah wanna teach us to be more patient, and put on more efforts? or perhaps we should reflect on ourselves first whether we are ready or not and stop putting blames on others. Yeah, as time pass by, i realized that i used to blame others for all the mishaps that were happening to me. Tak patut! I know, but i'm trying to change! and alhamdulillah, da boleh kot now. Like, who am i nk blame others? We should put aside our ego and accept that all the decisions that we've made actually come from within our own self! Maybe we did ask others' opinions about it, and they may have been given their suggestions, but when the outcomes didn't satisfy u, why should you blame them?? Common la, you ask them, and they give their views about it but the final decision was made by who? By we ourselves kan? So, nape nk blame others? Blame of your own foolness la! Geram betul la kalo jmpe org cmnih. Asyik nak salahkan org laen. X nak ngaku kesilapan sendiri. Saba je la.aih. Nauzubillahi min zaliq, kan da tbe2 jd marah plak nieh.aih. buang ke tepi.pergi jauh.syuh syuh.

But hey guys, we're only humans kan? Maybe we ourselves didn't realize that we are like that. So do tell me if im like that ya? tego je okay. Im fine with that. Im just xboley kena marah. Tego xpe.hihi ;P Im very scared if someone is mad at me.Even if they don't meant to, but when they talk to me with their 'high-pitch' volume i would automatically feeling so sad..coz i think they're mad at me.. and they don't like me..isk =( This happen when i called home last time, and I was talking to my dad, and i dunno why hr tuh his voice cm 'kuat'. Yeah, he was talking very loudly and i was like...omg..takot... (T_T) Tak jadi tros nk ckp ape yg sye mau.haha..Entah, maybe timing x btol kot. Die br balik keje sume. But aih. Takot la.. T_T. Okay, enough said.Membebel.

you know you love me,

Monday, 26 May 2008

How Music Describe My Life

I have been tagged by hazie! here's the game ..

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer. Even though it doesn’t make sense.
4. Tag 5 people.
5. Bold the questions. And with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the question

How are you feeling today?
Thank You For Loving Me-Bon Jovi
Er..yeah, i hope everyone or at least someone do missing me ;)

Will you get far in life?
I knew i love you-savage garden
haha..i think yes if i love someone and if he loves me back ;) *wink*wink*

How do your friends see you?
Kau sahabat Kau Teman-Hijjaz
lla!! I hope this is true! Kau shabat kau teman! hihi..i do hope my friends will regard me as their true fren..yes hazie, there's some nasyid song in my mp4 player.hihi

Will you get married?
everytime-Britney Spears
ahaha! don't get me wrong! i did follow the rules okay! marry everytime?? once would be enough.hoho

What is your best friend's theme song?
Love Song-Sarah Bareilles
bestfriend, is it true? hihi ;p

What is the story of your life?
Kenangan Terindah-Samsons
Wow! Terindah la sangat kan.haha..but yeah, i do take all my experiences here in UK as sweet memories to be kept forever..and along the way here, i do meet some people..very nice indeed..syukur dpt knal dorang..but u know, life is not always easy and indah..we do have some peristiwa pahit n sdey kan..well, dats life! ;)

What is high school like?
Puja Puji- Dendang anak
Err..i don't think i've got that much praises mase high school dlu. My friends do get a lot of praises tho. haha..i'm d quite type in high school and i rarely smile.Some regard me as sombong.haha..Sorry darl, penat lah senyum ;p

How can you get ahead in life?
Yes, i think i can get ahead in life by being special and unique in my own way.ain't it true? why do copycat? we must be brave and d most important thing is be ourselves! hehe

What is the best thing about your friends?
Maafkan-Rio Febrian
they are all forgiven. Maybe some may forgive but not forget but still, kemaafan dari kamu semua amat saye harapkan dan hargai. I know i do hurts their hearts a lot sometimes (when i'm really out of control). Maafkan saye ye kawan2..i'm not an angel without any flaw.. T_T

What is in store for this weekend?
Er..this is tough. Is my coming days gonna be tough? hard to

How is your life going?
When I fall in love-Celine Dion & Clive Griffin
Err..apesal la sume lagu2 nieh cm sgt la mengenai ngn idup saye? isk.Well,'s hard to say. Fall in love ke? hm..lets d time decide okay? no comment..

What song will they play at your funeral?
Have you ever been in love-Celine dion
aha..sdey la plak lagu ni kan. takpelah.okey je lgu ni pon wlpon sye amat mahu mereka bce ayat2 suci al-quran dr pasang lgu nih

Will you have a happy life?
Menanti Sebuah Jawapan-Padi
See! I told ya! lagu2 ini sgt memahami saye! Yes, im waiting for d answer! i don't know yet.ahaha

What do your friends really think of you?
haha..Hopefully. Saye tidak suka org pembohong.out of my list

Do people secretly lust after you?
Biarlah Rahsia-Siti Nurhaliza lagu said biarlah rahsia..haha., no comments..nk ckp pon takpe..jujur..ahaks ;p

How can I make myself happy?
Sephia-sheila on 7
yeah, by taking pictures of me.perhaps in sephia mode? haha

What should you do with your life?
Takbir-dendang anak kot
er...rindu mesia dgr takbir nie.. T_T.. nk suh saye balik ke? isk..

Will you ever have children?
Every man for himself-Hoobastank
er..haha..x paham sgt ape mksud nih.but yes, i want my own kids!! especially d small ones.mau cubit2.haha.comel2

Now i want to tag these 5 people:-
2) yo
3) farhana jabir
4) muna
5) open to anyone.haha

you know you love me,

Sunday, 25 May 2008

New blog!


hai guys! I've moved my blog here!! Just wanna try out different templates and breathe d new air =) So, how's my blog? hihi..I'll try to keep it simple and clean ;p Feel like baking. Maybe i'll bake some cake this afternoon. I'll post d picture if i succeed okay! da~

A slice for me

And the rest are to be given to my frens



Yes, these are the cakes that i baked this afternoon. There are 2 of them ;) Btw, tomorrow is my mom's birthday. Guess i baked this for her =) Happy Birthday Mom, tho i didn't say it, you kno i love you. And shahiid, i think tomorrow is ur birthday too rite? Happy Birthday =) God bless you always.

Till then, you know you love me,