Friday, 23 January 2009
Today has been my first day riding a cab (yep, d first time since im home) and it wasn't a pleasant experience.huh.the taxi driver was quite rude..he's a young man yes, n im riding d taxi alone yes.altho im quite scared coz i didnt trust malaysian taxi drivers (after all those cases), but i have to b strong..i have to b independant like before..n then when i told him i wanted to go to Danau Kota then he ask me back 'Danau Kota kt mane?'. i pon reply la 'danau kota la. jalan die otw nk g wangse maju'. bcoz i tot die x tau jalan nk pegi sne kan.pastu with this hight pitch n rude voice 'Yela Dnau Kota tu kat mane? nnati saye nk masuk jalan2 banyak nnti sye xtau pulak..Danau kota tu kan besa..' i was speechless for about 10 seconds bfore i ask him again 'ha? nk tau nname jlan ke ape?' n im still confused.but the man just kept quite n drive.then dlm hati i pkir la blk danau kota tu bukannye besa sgt pon.nek keta pusing 1 minit leh abes.lgpon kalo ye pon nk tau nme jalan, xleh ke tnye bek2? ni nk tnggi2 sore mara2 plak.lgpon slalunye sme prg tau danau kota tu ktne n slalu kalo nek taxi pon dorg akan drive je smpai ctu n then da smpai ctu br i tnjuk nk pusing mane pusing mane. aih.sabo je la.pnat gamaknye driver tu. seb bek la smpai gk umh i nih.nape i x drive? sbb nk parking ssusah kt HKL tuh..kalo ade pon jauh amat.so i may s well take a cab kan?ho..da la mse tggu taxi tu ade sorang mamat Melayu ni cm hape je dressing. ntah la mlayu ke indon ke kan.rse melayu.rmabut kaler ijau, slua skin. adooii..ape nk jadi la..rmbut kaler ijau.igt cntik sgt la tu.seb bek la i x tgelak dpn muke die.hehe ;p
hoho..okay. back to my story apsal i went to d hosp? bcoz i wnted to mke an appointment with d dermatologist ;)Im suffering from my eczema (yep i have minor eczema but the doc said that my skin is very2 dry T_T). What's eczema? Well, basically u can categorize it in one of the skin problem due to a very dry skin condition/inflammation of d skin. one can has mild to severe eczema and alhamdulillah, mine is just d mild ones. The doc said that the cause of eczema is not fully understood but it could be partly hereditary.hm..don't worry, it is not contagious. According to this website, "Eczema can make the skin dry, hot and itchy and it can become broken, raw and bleeding, producing an urge to scratch which can be hard to resist, whatever your age". yep very true. since d last 10 years Aqueous cream and betamethasone valerate cream have been my best friends. Without them even a day, my skin will become very2 dry, reddish, and it can become broken n raw. The feeling is just like ur skin tu menjadi sgt kering seperti tanah tandus d padang pasir n rase ditarik2 dgn tegang sekali T_T. n d texture is like kulit yg br lepas tbakar tu.leh imagine x? hoho..yep..sakit la kalo da kering sgt tu..kalo kene ujung baju pon skt n cn break my skin..ni kalo i da sminggu xsapu ubat la..my creams were running out for a week n i've jst had a chance to make an appointment just now.hu..even losyen n vaseline can't replace my 2 besties nieh.hu..apsal nmpak i cm okey je dr lua? mmg la, xkan la i nk pegi nanges pulak dpan orang kan..haha..those who kno me knows me ;) lgpon if i apply medicine everyday mmg my skin ok je cm kulit org normal :). sbb tu la x pasan sgt kot ;p. mse ubat abes je la seksa skit..x, seksa bnyak..kdg2 kalo lme sgt klt tu leh megelupas smpai kene air pon i skt..
anyway im sorry if i did scare anyone but it's true..so bersyukur la spe2 yg ada kulit lawa mcm bb skin tu..jgn la sbb jrawat tmbuh skit pon da komplen2, mengeluh..salah kite jgak cuai jge kulit..kan? just remember rmai lg kt lua sne yg less fortunate than u all..so b grateful with what u have.. n do take care of ur skin, jangan malas mandi..tau..hehe...me? i have n choice..i have to live with it until i dunno when..the doc said eczema is incurable..they havent found any proven medicine that can heal eczema completely..so until then i have to cope with it..i believe there's a reason behind all this things..lgpon Allah xkan menguji kita selain sesuai dgn kesanggupannye..kan? so does that mean i'm strong? hehe... ;)
it's not as easy as u think to cope with this problem..maybe u'll think "ah. ok.just apply the cream n everything will b alright". hoho..nope nope..ur life will change as well..it's not only about physical discomfort but it can also affect our emotional, personal well-beings n our daily life..everytime when i took my bath i have to use pH balance shower cream..i can't simply use any shower cream or else it will affect my skin..n after my bath i have to apply 2 layers of different creams onto my skin..so now i think u guys should now why im quite particular about products n all the stuff regarding the skin..it's not because i didn't use cheap/ unbranded products but it is because i can't...it's my skin problem that forbid me from using those..yes, it's hurts when sometimes people make judgment on you without knowing or care to know the real reasons behind it and already making their own assumptions..oh yes, it happens..hu..sometimes i do feel stressed out..i'll complain to myself why me? why i have to endure all this things? sometimes i wish to be a normal being who can bath n live like normal..who are free from the daily routine of applying medicine all over ur body..but then i realized..i have to accept this..this is my fate..what Allah has chosen for me..so i try to persuade n coax myself into believing myself n cope with people's perception on me..yes, if people see u with red blotch on ur hands who wanted to be friend with u? they will eyeing u with 'dat' look n will try to move far away from u..although it is not contagious but it will disgusts them..don't u all agree? but alhamdulillah my friends are very understanding n they didnt penalize me for what is not my fault..thank you guys..but even if u can't see it, i'll not get angry bcoz i know dat's lumrah kehidupan manusia..mmg semua manusia suka tgk bnda yg indah2..including me ;) so dun worry, i understand ;) n for those who think that im perfect/ lawa/ etc, don't be fooled by my appearance..nobody is perfect n i admit that im not one of those..im not perfect..
so now it's up to u all to judge who i am..whether u still wanna be my fren or not..entirely up to u..hha..manela twu kot2 ade spe2 yg allergic ngn org yg ada skin problem ni kan..u better get away from me coz i dun wanna disgust u..n for those who r still there n r always around when i need u, thank u very much friend,i cud never find a fren like u anywhere else.may god bless u..n hopefully Allah will granted my doa to be cured from eczema one day...aminn..